Blog Your Heart


I am playing along with Stephanie's Blog Your Heart Challenge. Here are the rules:

1. blog whatever is authentic. whatever is truly on your mind and in your heart.
2. it can be serious, silly, short, long. note:no one said it has to be serious. but it should be authentic.
3. no judging allowed no snarky comments, no making fun, no passive aggressive digs.if you are going to read the blogs linked below, don't be mean. nothing here is whining. it's me honestly sharing my feelings. if you feel that it's whining, then you don't have to read. :)

Here goes:

1. I think I have forgotten how to scrapbook. Or be creative. Since the boys moved to their dads, I have been in a crazy bad place. I'm trying to get over the 'hump' but its just.so.damn.hard.

2. Oh how I love Alex. He is my rock and he has been so a source of strength for me. God has truly blessed us with a crazy, wonderful, beautiful, sometimes tense marriage. But oh how wonderful it is to know he has my back, no matter what.

3. I am down to a size 6. Let me say that again: I AM DOWN TO A SIZE 6, PEOPLE! When I started my diet/working out, I was in a 12/14. It feels so good to be losing weight the 'right way' (exercising, and eating better). Honestly, working out has been a life saver for me. When I work out, I forget being sad, and focus on me. I get to work things out in my head + heart, and just sweat the heart ache away.

4. Its the beginning of October, and that means I am about to be running indoors again. Hello, treadmill. Have I mentioned I hate running on treadmills? Yeah, I do.

5. Tomorrow my sweet Maw Maw turns 87 years old. My Maw Maw is the absolute best. She is a strong Christian woman, who loved my Paw Paw like no one else could. She was a strong Southern woman, who loved to cook and be around her family. Some of my favorite memories were with her and my grand paw, playing with the chickens on their farm, fishing in the 'front pond', and just sitting around her circle kitchen table eating Blue Bell icecream. She made me feel like I so important to her, and in a family with 4 other brothers and sisters, it was hard to feel special growing up.  I hope getting healthy helps me live that long. I feel pretty lucky to be almost 33 years old, and still have a granny around that is still in (relatively) good health. I miss her so much - she lives in Louisiana  and well, I don't get back home like I wish I did.

6. Alex is taking me back home (to Maw Maw's) the week of October 15. I cannot wait. We are going to the State Fair, Galveston, Lake Charles and stopping pretty much whenever we want to on the way down and back.

7. My boys are doing well at their Dad's. They seem to be liking their new school + adjusting well. I miss them like crazy. Seriously.

8. I *think* I am stopping my Project Life book. I don't know. Its hard to continue it when its just Alex + I. I want to finish it...but I am only caught up through mid-June. Not sure I can catch up + not sure what to document without the boys. The jury is still out, though. So we will see. I think if I could get over #1 in this post, I might be able to get back on track.

9. We are 85% done with my new scrapbook room. The hardwoods floors/stairs have been laid. Walls painted. Most of the furniture moved in. I am waiting on my new light fixtures and new table that Alex is building me. I really like my space now. Its soooo much larger than my old place. I will post pictures, soon.

10. So, Alex's 39th birthday was on Sept 17 - and his sister called the other day, wanting to bring him his present. Sure, come on over. Well, she comes over and has his gift: it is a photo of Marcy + Alex's Mee Maw (who passed away on Sept 15) together. We had never seen this photo before. Apparently it was taken with his sisters camera one night when she came over to babysit while we had a dinner date. Anyway, I cannot ever begin to tell you how much this photo means to us. When you lose a child so early in life, most don't have a ton of photos (and really, could ever take 'enough' photos to last you till you meet your baby in Heaven? I doubt it!), so to be given this special photo almost 8 years later is like being given a secret treasure.

Thats all for now. Tonight I am spray painting a lamp + working on getting things situated in my scrapbook room. Fun times.

7 comments:

  1. I am so sorry you are going through such a tough time. Amazing effort on the weight loss. That is a spectacular effort. Enjoy your trip home and your new scrap room. As someone who scraps on the sofa colour me envious!

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  2. WOW, sounds like you are being SO TOUGH through such a trying period. Congrats on your weight loss...bleh, I hear you about the treadmill running!

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  3. oh honey. I just wanna come over and give you a hug or ten or fifty. congrats on the weight loss!

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  4. Don't feel bad you haven't lost the ability to scrapbook, it is like riding a bike and when your ready for it, it will come back again! CONGRATS on the weigh loss! That is incredible!!

    Sending you many HUGS!

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  5. Creativity comes in waves- just ride it and do what feels right. CONGRATS on a size 6- hot mama!

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  6. Congrats on your weight loss! I'm sure the mojo will come back soon!

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  7. SIZE SIX???Are you kidding me???I AM SO PROUD OF YOU and i wish i could hug your neck. That is so inspiring to me, Melissa.

    And the story about Marcy made my eyes well up with tears. What an amazing gift. Goosebumps.

    Last thing? Don't catch up. Just start again. That's my PL advice.

    Love you, friend!
    xoxo

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